Wednesday, March 5, 2008
Last two weeks were really tiredsome, trying, turbulative and terrible. I'm better this week, more to my own self and trying hard to get back to my usual self, carry on with things, enjoying my kids, drawing close to hubby, be alive and letting go the burden I've been carrying for the past few months. I've been wearing dull colors clothing for the past two weeks but today decided to be on pink, I still miss mom but I don't think mom wants me to keep on mourning for her. So I've decided to break free, let go and let God heals me naturally.
I can now talk about mom freely, no more teary eyes, though sometimes can't help it. I'm trying to think positively, all sweet memories of her come over flowing me, in fact, I talk more about her; to my mom in-law, daughters, colleagues and friends. She left so much of her in me, in us.
Michelle and Emily have been very positive and supportive, keep on assuring me that I should not worry, poh poh is in heaven, smiling at us. The other day Michelle asked me if I still miss poh poh, I answered "yes, very much", she answered lovingly that she did too, how sweet.
To those who have been wondering how I cope, I'm much better now, thanks for your concern, to those whom I did not inform, I seek your understanding and rest assured I'm doing OK, by God's grace.