The thoughts of my mom came randomly especially at quiet nights when I lay down to sleep with my daughters, mostly on our last days together. I missed her but not as bad when she first passed on... I talked about her casually with my children, how poh poh used to teach their mummy certain things, what poh poh would say or do if she's still around. The girls asked a lot of questions about death, why is poh poh's buried under the ground, when is she going to heaven, does poh poh need to eat now.. it's not easy to explain all these to a 6 and 4 year old.
Next week we are going back to visit mom's tomb as by then it should be nicely done, I know I will miss her even more then. I've been wearing mom's white gold necklace (a gift from dad many many years back) and a bracelet given by her since she passed away. I guessed it's a way for me to feel her presence and also to keep a little part of her with me no matter where I go, she's in my heart forever, that's for sure.