God's blessings

After the miscarriage episode, it took us another year before I was confirmed pregnant again, this time I was extremely cautious, vowed not to take any kind of drugs (no matter how sick I am..)

A few weeks into the pregnancy I was spotting again... the whole cycle of what I went through a year ago came back to haunt me, will I lose my baby again this time? The fear of losing our flesh and blood is so great that I doubted if I ever can become a mother.

I went to see the gynae and again scheduled for jabs to stabilize the baby, in fact I need to go back on a weekly basis to receive the painful jabs, I told myself I'm willing to withstand whatever physical discomfort if only I can keep my baby intact in my womb for the full nine months. The medication really turned my body upside down, my appetite, my taste, my mood not to forget the painful butt after each jab. Hubby was quite helpless, all he can do was to assure that we are going to go through all that together (even though it's really me who sort of "suffering")...

God is good, after a few jabs and medication, the baby stabilized, no more bleeding and suddenly one morning I felt so good (no more vomitting and morning sickness), I soon realized we have survived our first trimester... yay!!

The second and third trimester went through smoothly, though I don't gain much weight (before 52kg, full term 62kg), I was as healthy as a horse. Finally on 11th June 2002, gave birth to our first daughter, Michelle after 10 hours of labour pain (admitted at 2.00am, delivered at 12.30 noon), she weighed a merely 2.56kg...

After a year, I was blessed with our second child, Emily, borned on 22nd Feb 2004 after 2.5 hours in pain, she weighed 3 kg....

Looking back, God has been so gracious to us, I stand in awe of Him. Stay tuned for the girls' pictures in my next post..